I Have Never Proud of myself

I was crying last night because I thought I did well at school.
I got my report card back yesterday which I've been waiting for since the school holidays started 2 weeks ago. I was too keen to see my marks because I really forced myself to focus on my studies and gave up my online game addiction for the last 2 terms of my Year 11. The moment I saw my marks, I told myself I did well- I got 4 B's and 2 C's which is way better than what I've got for the first semester in which I failed one of my subject and got pretty much C's. On that night, my dad asked me why my marks were not that high.- He's expecting higher marks than that because he was used to seeing A's on my report cards when I was in Junior High School. I yelled back at him and said, " It's not that easy to get freakin' A now that I'm in senior grade!"

I went straight to my computer and opened up my msn. I joined my Filipino friends who were currently having a conference. I asked one of my closest friend Joan about her marks, - I know Joan did not put much effort for the last 2 terms as much as I did that I even started working my ass off a month before all my assessments due. She started pretty much of hers on the last week before the due end of our assessments and admitted to me that she just copied and pasted some of her stuff from the internet. Joane's working part time as well so she has no time to do hers. - My mom once asked me on why she's gettin awards despite the fact that she's working at the same time, unlike me who's got no job and doin nothin at home, have failed a subject... Honestly, I DON'T KNOW!

Anyways, back to the moment when I was asking her about her marks, I was shocked when she told me that she got some A's and pretty much B's. I asked myself.. "WHAT THE F***? AM I JUST REALLY DUMBED? I did way better than her! "